Well

i have decided.

i want a laptop for Christmas. and that's pretty much it.

maybe a crappy car to drive around, maybe some clothes. other than that. i will be all set.

but i don't want a laptop so that i can myspace and facebook or blog all day.


i am writing a book. and i need the freedom to write whereever and whenever i want.

i am wayyy excited. i cant wait to start. it will help me to get out all my frustration and all my ideas. to be able to really characterize. to show how i observe and feel, and some of my experiences will be in there as well.
its gonna be a great thing for me

yes, i am not a great writer. and its gonna take ALOT of time. and i will most likely finish in a few years haha. but i mean hey! it will be something i can say i have done.

i have never been so inspired to do something like this.

(i havent though of names yet)

My main character is a girl who is really odd. she has weird thoughts and weird personality flaws, she is very easily amused and friendly. but once you get to know her. shes intensely troubled. She is very good at pretending to feel or think a certain way. she for the most part has good intentions. but she can be very stupid at times. she has far too much trust in people even though shes knows that lying is there because she tends to do it herself. My other character is her best friend. He is always there for her when she needs him. but he in turn has some problems. his mother died when he was 10 and his dad isn't so much the best father to him. he kinda lets him to whatever he wants too. he has a lot of trouble staying away from the bad crowd. he tries to always be there for the girl but he moves away in the beginning of the book and they can only speak on the phone. There are two other guy characters and one girl hcaracter. The first of the two guys is a friend from school. he is really morally concious. he is nice to her but can be a total kerk. he is intolerant and tends to be hated for it. he over thinks everything. but he is usually the good guy, until he turns on the main girl when tradegy is unveloped to him about the main girl. Which introduces the second guy his name is James. he is an ASSHOLE. he only wants one thing and he is sick and twisted enough to convince our main girl when she was younger to "give" it to him. more or less it was taken from her. there will be a flashback scence to what really ends up happening. the main girl is truly affected by this incident and the stroy involves how she lives her life to be a better person with the help of the two "good guys" and her best frind. who is a very artistic and amazing young girl who has such an insight about her friend. they know everything there is to know about one another and get along very well. they are very similar in most ways. and she is there to always cheer her up and keep her going.

there will be other characters and other little plot twists but for the most part. thats where im going with the book.

i might change things around but i havent thought of any names except James. i picked that name because James always seems to be the bad guy.

=] so excited!