interesting quote.

“A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, and make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.” ~Elizabeth Gilbert



my perception was way off. i guess i already had one of those. i guess after you find your "soul mate" you look for the "love of your life" which is the one who can and will share their life with you.

Looking back

I literally haven't posted in a year.

Looking back on my posts i want to just go back and delte them all. But i guess that doesn't serve the purpose of a blog now does it?

I dont really have much else to say. i guess i can try to start writing more from now on.

i am sooo

happy.

love life. love god. love friends. love family.

everything has been SOOO good its ridiculous. i have been soo happy lately and its all because of the new life i have been creating for myself.

i learned so much from my past relationship that its soo much easier to be a better person.

i honestly still think that hans was my hero. he made me realize things that i dont like about me. he made me get back up and stand up for myself. so thanks.

and God has also been a divining point in my life. yes i am a christian, always have been. but god has really come back to play an important role in my life =]

i am just sooo glad to be living life the way it should be =]]

its been awhile

a few things have happened:

- i got into a bad car accident.
- i got back together with and then re-dumped my ex.
- dated someone new. in a way i got dumped by them.
- i started going to church again
- i met tons of new people
- i helped someone from committing suicide.

its been a long road.

and Larry Lohan. thats hilarious. haha. i seriously can not get over that.

life

is so weird, exciting, unexpected, and ever-changing.

but when old chapters end and you have to turn the page. it is ridiculously hard to turn the page when it isn't necessarily forced upon you.


unless you are moving or going off to college or something really significantly life changing happens it is so hard to do it.

when not much has truly changed and the old life is staring you in the face saying "hey, im still here." its SO hard to move on.

lately things have gotten a lot easier. with the help of friends and family i have become Jenna again.

I am back to being the way i always was. happy, carefree and NOT a cynic.

thank the lord above for all he has blessed me with. including going through what i just did. i learned a hell of a lot.

I was looking

through all the old stuff.

i figured i could handle it.

i couldn't =/ i feel like everything was a lie.

i guess

its comforting to know people who have gone through the same thing

that understand what you are going through.

it makes me feel much better and much brighter knowing that not all people are bad. i tried to give up hope. i thought all people were bad people and were mean and treated people terribly.

i was wrong. that's not true. there is hope.

i will hopefully find love again.
if not love. comfort works too. maybe someone who compliments me.
that's what we should all try to find. not someone who "completes you" but someone who compliments you.

Merry Christmas =]