i am sooo

happy.

love life. love god. love friends. love family.

everything has been SOOO good its ridiculous. i have been soo happy lately and its all because of the new life i have been creating for myself.

i learned so much from my past relationship that its soo much easier to be a better person.

i honestly still think that hans was my hero. he made me realize things that i dont like about me. he made me get back up and stand up for myself. so thanks.

and God has also been a divining point in my life. yes i am a christian, always have been. but god has really come back to play an important role in my life =]

i am just sooo glad to be living life the way it should be =]]

its been awhile

a few things have happened:

- i got into a bad car accident.
- i got back together with and then re-dumped my ex.
- dated someone new. in a way i got dumped by them.
- i started going to church again
- i met tons of new people
- i helped someone from committing suicide.

its been a long road.

and Larry Lohan. thats hilarious. haha. i seriously can not get over that.

life

is so weird, exciting, unexpected, and ever-changing.

but when old chapters end and you have to turn the page. it is ridiculously hard to turn the page when it isn't necessarily forced upon you.


unless you are moving or going off to college or something really significantly life changing happens it is so hard to do it.

when not much has truly changed and the old life is staring you in the face saying "hey, im still here." its SO hard to move on.

lately things have gotten a lot easier. with the help of friends and family i have become Jenna again.

I am back to being the way i always was. happy, carefree and NOT a cynic.

thank the lord above for all he has blessed me with. including going through what i just did. i learned a hell of a lot.

I was looking

through all the old stuff.

i figured i could handle it.

i couldn't =/ i feel like everything was a lie.