Spanish Rice

Yesterday was alright. I got to catch up with some friends i haven't seen in awhile. and played volleyball with my Hanzy and some other friend. Then i got home. opened my gifts and then went to Hans house. we ate some Del taco and watched a bit of Rambo with his friend Brandon. It was chill. Then today i went with Hans to get his new racquet. haha hes so cute. he spent like $100 on a totally legit racquet. Then i played ball girl for him while he hit some balls haha. Then we went to his Great grandmas house with his family. We went swimming and had delicious food. including yes, Spanish rice haha. I love that boy so much. Hes amazing! <3 Now hes at work. his last shift at Sweet Retreat. Now I'm just chilling listening to good music and writing in here. I really want to see a movie tomorrow. or even tonight. I have 3 movies i really want to see: tropic thunder, pineapple express, and house bunny. well now to go eat some more hehe. oh. take my poll!

Birthday party today

I woke up at 7:30 this morning to go with my mom to take my dog to get groomed. Then we spent like 2 hours at the store getting food for today =] We got all kinds of good food. Mmm! I'll put pictures later. I'm so excited to play volleyball with my friends and eat good food. I made a pasta salad and barbecue chicken wings haha. We got chips and salsa and tons of other goodies. I'm in a very good mood surprisingly. But before my party: QUIDDITCH!!! hahaha omg. i love my friends!!! <333 haha i better go. so i can get ready for it :D

Bad day

Today was a terrible day. Actually last night was terrible. I got into the worst mood> i stayed up late thinking about my life and how i am the way i am. It made me realize how terrible i really do feel about myself. I'm unfortunately a truly unhappy person. I just pretend to be happy. I wish people would understand me if i told them. I'm thinking about writing a book. Though this blog helps too. I wish i could find someone who was going through a similar thing. But I have yet to find someone. the closest person was Melinda from Speak. But thats different. I have relationships with people and I talk to people. Well my birthday party is today. So I'm hoping i will cheer up and have a great time. Hanzy is coming, so i hope all goes well.