today

i got rid of it all. i got rid of all the things that could remind me.

i deleted his number. i took off all the pictures. i but my book in the garage somewhere hidden so i could never see it. i cant throw it out just yet.

i got rid of everything. his jacket. his gifts. his ring. ALL OF IT.

and i cried. one last time. i told him happy early birthday, happy thanksgiving, merry Christmas, happy new year, and even happy valentines day. so then that way. when those days came along i would tell hi it again. its already been done. that hardest is going to be our one year. because i had such a HUGE plan for it. but oh well. i will get over it. the day will come. i might shed a tear and then i get over it.

ill get over it all.

i just wish i hadn't lost my best friend.

but i am on my way already with my book. its very exciting.

AND my moms friend said she might be able to get me an audition for twilight =] to be a part of the tribe hahaha. my native americanness might come in handy. FOR ONCE hahaha

so excited! wootwoot