Babysitting

Yesterday at like 11:30 in the morning i got a call from my moms friend because she really needed a babysitter. i would have to stay the night because she was going to be out really late. I found out a little later on that her daughter Carly has diabetes. I had to check her blood sugar several times. I felt so bad. That must not be fun at all. she cant have too much sugar or too little so she cant eat whatever she wants when she wants. She has to eat at certain times. and she cant exceed a certain amount of any food. I wouldn't be able to do that. She is sooo sweet though. and so fun. and she made me realize that life is not to be taken for granted. She has a heart of gold. She wanted to pray before bed and she wanted me to pray with her so she did a prayer and then she wanted me to do a prayer. In her prayer she said a nice thing about everyone in her family and said about how much she loves her mom because her mom really cares about her and is always checking to make sure she doesnt go into a coma. She is an inspiration. Im so glad i did that. I definantly needed tha. It cheered me up and showed me the simplistics of being a child. I miss being young and never feeling lonely or sad or anything. They just jump right back up and say im gonna play a game! and they go and do there thing. they pretend they have a whole room of friends. and they are never alone. Its so imaginative and i miss that. I am so tired of growing up. I want to be immature again. But at the same time i dont =/ I guess i just want life to be simple like it used to be. When bad things seemed they would never happen. And life was like a dream. No heartaches. No real worrying. No nightmares. Nothing. I wish that could happen again. But unfortunatly it never can =[